Innocent guilt

it was part of a plan.. an unconcius plan.. i waited for the right time..and i did it..until know i have no clue on how i did it..it just came out..mayb im tired of this, maybe my innocent guilt told me to do it..and yes i did it.. for more than 7 days i wasnt sure what is going on.. the same shit keeps repeating in my head and i cant seem to find the answer.. i was blur and i have no idea wat to do…should i continue to lie to myself or should i just finish what ive started..and my decision was the hardest decision ive ever made.. im not so sure how to feel with this mix emotion of a slight grin and the wall staring for several minutes.. i noticed that my plan was working and it was over.. my mind went blank..not sure where is this leading too..hopefully something big..and yes this is a starting..thanks for the experience and goodbye.

pieces….

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

On my own…

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn’t worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

too lazy to blog

i killed 2 cockroach while their mating..should i feel bad or glad? cause if i let them continue… i cant take my shit as they were mating in the toilet..and i believe they are thousands of cockroach in my house area…ahh screw the cockroaches..they stink…

good morning!

12 hours of sleep was awesome after a long week of work..my neck now hurts..im not sure due to wat…but i feel good…im planing my day…it has to be beautiful…

Traffic lights

green yellow and red. what a beautiful colour combination. it makes me happy. i hate red light..no one likes it..because everyone hates waiting for it to turn green as everyone is impatient in this world.. im sure many of you were like “fuck red light”, if your not saying it out loud, you will be saying it in your head.. if your with a bunch of friends, more fuck then…and if the green light turns red fast you will be “Wat the fuck”… im a motorcyclist myself and i hate it when its bloody hot out there mate…it burns mofo….and i hate it when the light is red and the road is empty or maybe a few cars..this question will be playing in my head..” should i go?…and hit the red light…hmm….how ar………fuck the red light lets go..”

After few months of doing that..i dont feel guilty anymore… in my understanding…..Watever light is it…if the coast is clear….make your move!

Office faces

Toilet habit

My back is aching badly. I’m not sure whether it was from ”swimming”  in the river or my curvy bed. Anyways talking about toilet, whenever i’m in the toilet cubicle taking a dump…ill get uneasy when people come in the toilet…its like ur trying ur best to push ur crap out and out of a sudden one of your colleague comes in..and u know you dont want them to hear the ‘plup’ sound so i’ll to remain as quiet as possible..will continue to push once he’s out..i’ll lose my motivation to shit…the worst part is when ur colleague keeps on talking to you when ur trying to concentrate on something else.. ill be like “bro, can talk later ar..my fren shy wan come out la”..

I was nominated

I was nominated in the office yesterday. Check it out.. this email was written by my manager..

 

Just to lighten up your day and to ease my frustrations in checking your allowance forms –

SEA Press

Most Tidy & readable form – STANLEE

 

Most Untidy & unreadable & eye damaging form – JOYCE

 

SEA Broadcast

Most Tidy & readable form – BODHI & RENU (Tie)

 

Most Untidy & unreadable & eye damaging form – EMMA

 

ANZIP

Most Tidy & readable form – ALICE

 

Most Untidy & unreadable & eye damaging form – NAZAH & ARON

 

The untidy form owners please make an appointment to see the tidy form owners to get some tips.

 

Thanks

Clouds

I love clouds..I can just stare at it and it makes me wonder for a few minutes…

Post box

I’m proud of my screwed up post box.. a lorry ram my postbox and we were to lazy to buy one..